When do I write best?

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• At midnight
• After I've had tea 
• On my laptop
• Listening to lo-fi
• When the air around me stops moving
• When I'm warm
• When everything's quiet
• After I've eaten
• When no one walks into my room to interrupt me
• When I don't have anything else to do.

So...

   At midnight, after an uneventful day, I sit in my bed at my laptop. My peppermint tea has finally cooled enough it won't burn me to drink it and I'm able to relax. The air around the house has finally stopped moving because the other occupants of the house have been asleep for at least an hour by this point. It's quiet enough I'm reminded I have tinnitus. Rather than get distracted by everything YouTube has to recommend, I turn on my 'Hours in the Night' playlist and wrap a blanket around me to stave off my anemia. I sip my tea, maybe washing down a snack. Usually, at this time of night, I have something sweet to activate my dopamine. The extra chemical spike makes me grateful for the lack of responsibility I have at the moment. I feel free rather than like a burden. I feel as though I have time to mend to my will rather than throw it away. I feel that indulging in the writing I love isn't a waste, rather a step to take in my journey as I find my purpose in this world. Let me enjoy these fleeting seconds, minutes, and hours until I lay down only to awaken in my depressive pit. The happiness will never last, and I'm tired of pretending that it will. So, I shall take this time to sit and make progress....because I don't know when I'll be able to do this again.

The Writer's Guild

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I'm a part of a Writer's Guild. This is a private guild composed of myself and a few others. We have a similar family dynamic to the Hot Asian D&D crew, but it's much more tight-knit. I happen to be closer to the Writer's Guild because we have workshopped each other's work. Our strong bond could be due to most of our writing works being creative nonfiction. Stylized writing mixed with deeply personal situations makes for intense emotional connections. Not to say we haven't written standard fiction as well. I mean, this is all from my personal perspective. So, in actuality, I'm just closer to the Writer's Guild because I've known them longer and spent more time with them. 

The similar family dynamic mentioned earlier all starts with the dad of this group, Patrick. He's much older than the rest of us and literally a dad. The rest of us in the group are like his wayward children, siblings that co-exist in the same virtual home. I'm the sibling that stays in my room staring at my phone, only coming out to say random memes and disappear again. Jenny is the eldest daughter that's always tired because she works, goes to school, and helps with her younger siblings. (Think Franky from Foster's Homes for Imaginary Friends.) Ray, Emily, and Laci are like the middle siblings that are coasting through misadventures. (Think Ned's declassified level realism funniness.) Dee and I are the little siblings that just sit in our rooms playing with dolls and creating our own worlds all day. 

We actually don't write much in the Writer's Guild. We try, but writing is hard, man... We sometimes just want a place to exist without worrying about home life, work, school, etc. 

A few members (the middle siblings) did come together and make an editorial team, (yet another misadventure) so whenever we do write we can get our work edited. Check out the site here!