When do I write best?

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• At midnight
• After I've had tea 
• On my laptop
• Listening to lo-fi
• When the air around me stops moving
• When I'm warm
• When everything's quiet
• After I've eaten
• When no one walks into my room to interrupt me
• When I don't have anything else to do.

So...

   At midnight, after an uneventful day, I sit in my bed at my laptop. My peppermint tea has finally cooled enough it won't burn me to drink it and I'm able to relax. The air around the house has finally stopped moving because the other occupants of the house have been asleep for at least an hour by this point. It's quiet enough I'm reminded I have tinnitus. Rather than get distracted by everything YouTube has to recommend, I turn on my 'Hours in the Night' playlist and wrap a blanket around me to stave off my anemia. I sip my tea, maybe washing down a snack. Usually, at this time of night, I have something sweet to activate my dopamine. The extra chemical spike makes me grateful for the lack of responsibility I have at the moment. I feel free rather than like a burden. I feel as though I have time to mend to my will rather than throw it away. I feel that indulging in the writing I love isn't a waste, rather a step to take in my journey as I find my purpose in this world. Let me enjoy these fleeting seconds, minutes, and hours until I lay down only to awaken in my depressive pit. The happiness will never last, and I'm tired of pretending that it will. So, I shall take this time to sit and make progress....because I don't know when I'll be able to do this again.